I was. That creeping feeling was back, i wasnt ready to fall in love again.
I started to wonder.
How could i impress you…?
How could i keep you interested?
How can i make sure you… stay?
Everyone leaves. They all do.
But you didnt.
You kept coming back even when i didnt reply for days. You were there when i felt like everthing could be crashing down on me all at once. You drew things to make me feel better, you shared your favorite songs with me so even when i was out, i could still be reminded of you, you made me know how concerned you were for me. And oh god, you had me wrapped around your finger.
My feelings for you went from dread to such a nice surprise.
July 10- September 17, 2022
You confessed to me a little after a month later…
I felt like it was the best day of my life. Maybe it was a little fast, but i couldnt help how you pulled my heart right into yours. It shocked me, how long 40 days could feel like with you. Even today i feel like time passes so slowly with you, and thats not a bad thing at all.
I still needed time to say yes because of my last breakup… but you were so understanding and loving. I felt so loved. I hoped every night that i made you feel the same way, that i was doing my job correctly to care for you. I couldnt let what my last relationship felt like to me happen to you.
We got together a month and a half later and finally started our journey through our relationship.
Fast, wasnt it? People say its not worth it to date in highschool, especially long distance, and that it wont work if you rush into it. Well, who made those rules? Were two years now and going strong, Nobody can stop us now. Everything in this world is worth it for you, even the hardships and evil in this world because you make every day worth it.
Welcome to Fall, our season.
Dear Avery Alexis Hewitt,
I love you.
There isnt anyone else in the world i would rather spend the rest of my life with. In every universe, i just know id keep looking for you in this endless world. You are special to me, you build the pieces to complete me. Youre the sun to my moon, the sea to my river, the last puzzle piece i thought id never find.
These two years ive been with you have changed me as a person. Ive spent half my highschool years with you, growing together, making mistakes together, creating beautiful things together with you and not once have i regretted this time since ive met you.
What is more worth it than being with you?
I know, i know you have your doubts sometimes, but know that we are stronger than a passing feeling. We are stronger than the things that try to take us away from eachother. Weve had two years to prove just that, and i want to keep making these precious memories with you. You make me feel like this is worth it. You are worth it to me, and i am sorry that sometimes im not in the right place of mind to show that to you.
I promise ill make you feel like this is worth it too. Thank you for loving me, for caring for me even when i pushed you away. Thank you for being the most wonderful girlfriend in the world.
You are stronger than what you think. Never stop being yourself, i will keep loving every part of you till the end of time.
-Raine
Youve reached the end, but not the end of our jouney.
I hope you like this, Avery♡
I self taught myself and watched a bunch of videos to get this right..its my first time doing a carrd, but i wanted you to know how much i care for you and that i still do feel the same for you as i did back then. I wanted to recount our first time meeting each other like how i felt during the time… you gave me such a unique feeling, i could never forget it. You are important to me and deserve to be shown it.
I love you so much and Im grateful i can be apart of your life and live through it with you.
Happy 2 year anniversary!!!!<3
